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why won't it rain. PLEASE. wash all the haze away and put out all the fires. PLEASE. wah. dont understand how kevin can study under block A for two days without getting affected by the polluted air. yucks. hmmm. studying in the chat rooms quite cool. i can concentrate much better! just that it's like a steamer. even now i can feel myself radiating heat q:

okay. let's see. about saturday, i told kevin about how cute my nieces and nephew were but after nine hours of playing and taking care of them, i conclude it's a full time job but oh well. hmmm.

anyway. i got my job alr! :D haha. cool la q:

didnt study much on sunday. went to cut hair! felt so happy just to go out for a while. hmmmmm. oh well. then tried to do maths and even more maths x:

yesterday had two lectures! i think now that i've gone through chem once alr, going for the revision lectures sorta refresh my memory and more beneficial! (: yupp. then for maths, the turn out was quite bad. but i learnt new stuff. oh no. this is not the time to learn new stuff. x: yupp.

tday physics mock was kinda demoralising. bleah. i really really cannot do explanation questions. all my key phrases dont knw throw go where. i have to remake my physics summaries over the weekend! chem lecture this morning was gd! haha. i like the way the lecturer teaches leh. haha. the way he speaks abit funny as i was telling hulin but he can get his msg across quite well unless he doesnt rmb what he has said. coincidentally his name is jeremy ng also. haha.

hmmmm. okay. just these few days, i've seen the "for myself" mindset so many times. quite scary but i guess it's just more obvious now. hmmmm but oh well.

yay! i treat zixi as my "twin sister" kevin as my younger brother, jemlam as my older brother dawn rebecca xinqin charmaine as my sisters! thank you (: come to think of it. haha. they behave like my siblings too. hmmmm. i've always imagined my twin sister to have the same frequency as me to be interested in the same things and be able to talk about anything and everything (: then my younger brother as someone who is like kevin! haha. someone you have to remind to do work. someone who will share things with you and obviously listen to ur crap. older brother somewhat like jemlam. but ~~slightly~~ more manly x: haha. but he'll just listen to ur rubbish although he wont say much also unless on further probing (: these three people are like just one message away! thank you (: then my dear sisters who i am really comfortable with. dont even have to talk it's just that special feeling. even i go out with my sister we dont talk alot but we're just there. and i'm not taking you all for granted! :D

yay! diana got a job too! so we at least have each other in the hospital (: although we'll be at different departments. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

told jem ng my weird plan. i dont want to get into a relationship but i want to get married and have children x:

haha. so random. yupp. waiting for maths to be uploaded leh. rah. nvm. i'll go do other things first. bye!

first problem is the worst
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